Balls and Bondage

It's been a while. I still think about you. Things are chaotic but the rush keeps it interesting. Some say I'm consumed. Perhaps, but I'm ok with that. I've been busy, but a sense of nostalgia brings me here. to write. to tell. to vent.

I'm saying goodbye to the old me. Or is it the young me? I'm not sure. But this new me has an intense need to fly, float and be free. I was talking to a friend that at some point made my stomach turn. Today, he  makes me sad - he's lost and comfortable. With no lane open for take off, he's bonded to her, the rent and to a fear of living without passion.

It takes balls to fulfill your purpose. Heavy balls and it's not always pleasant. More importantly it takes conviction and reprogramming of subconscious thought. It also requires detailed attention to what the mouth invokes. Words are so powerful; they're beautiful and scary. Speak carefully.






     

Let Loose

Billy Nasty & Lucidhouse part 2 from lucidhouse on Vimeo.

I am not a fan of people constantly trying to be too real. I understand being true to you, but then there are those who are so one-dimensional it makes me want to cry. Real life vs. fantasy; why does there have to be such a distinct separation. Why can't it mesh?

It seems to be hard for some to incorporate a mix into their lives. Speaking to someone who is completely opposed/closed to this possibility (or should I say reality) is evident. They tend to be boring and a tad pessimistic. Unable to live with a little fantasy eliminates the opportunity for a new dialogue, a new experience, a new optical to view the world. In my experience, allowing fantasies and my imagination to splatter over this tangible world gives me new stamina.


"But it’s not real Jess?"

What makes something real? Tangibility? I say you have the ability to make a lot of things real or non-existent if you really want to. Don't invalidate something because it’s in your imagination or subconscious. Rather explore it and find a way for it to become part of your expression of being.

Note: thank you to my beautiful friend and very imaginative., Leo who always gives me a beat to let loose to.